That spurs the next thing thats weighing on me. Ive had job offers for city, etc, etc. Places the pay wouldn't equal what i am doing now, but they have the benefits and in 20 years i could retire with benefits. The insurance cost savings alone would be a big thing(almost equal the pay cut). But then i would be expendable if downsides etc. I don't know why but its been eating at me lately when my backs killing me and locked up and i cant pick up my kids, or it hinders day to day life.
Any one else have these days? I dont know why but its killing me how its eating away at me. Probably doesnt help my wifes so caught up in her work now running/managing a cafe and the church stuff so she is pre-occupied....


Sorry to ramble just need to vent